Assalmualaikum..
huhuh.....meh aku nk cite skit psal dunia skrg...2 mlm lps aku tgk brite kt tv3 tau,...buletin utama...ada news psl israel srng palestine...aku cam terdiam dn mula berpk apa yg da jadi kat manusia skrg sbnrnya....aku btl2 x phm.....maafkan aku klau aku terksar bhsa ke apa tp itula yg aku tgh pk skrg...umur ku br 17 thn....apa yg aku ptt buat...smua org ada tnggjwb msg2...tp, apa yg terdya aku buat....aku sedih bila tgk saudara aku sndri yg mnjadi mngsa kekjemn israel. serngan israel ke ats palestine btl2 buat aku insaf....buat aku terdiam..buat aku terpk....kita di malaysia dah aman ke?....ya....kta dah lbh drpd aman shinggakn kta sndri x sdar dn rmai yg da takbur dan lalai dgn ksengn yg kta ada skrg.......apa salah mreka shingga mreka diuji sbgtu berat...
"Allah tidak akan menguji sesuatu umat itu melainkan apa yg terdya untk mreka mnghadapinya"....
aku prcya dgn jnji Allah....
"Apa yg kita dpt, itulah yg terbaik drpd Allah,dan Dia tlah memprmudahkn sgalanya bg kita"....
dlm hal israel dn palestin..aku x nk slahkan spa2....cma aku ingin satu shj....satu bnda yg tlh mmbri mksud kpd Islam sndri...islam bermksd sejahtera......aku adlh "sejahtera"......dan pndudk palstin adalh "sejahtera".......yg kami smua inginkn adalah kesejahteraan.......
"Ya Allah, ringankanlah beban mereka. Sesungghnya kpd Mu shj aku sembah dan kpd Mu shj aku mnta prtlongon"
dlm kes israel dn palestin.......dua2 phak ingkn keadilan....israel ingn mmblas dendam..palestine ign menuntut bela......knp hrus jd bgini....aku ppn tkut bli pk bnda ni.....dunia tgh cbuk dgn kes ini...tp di malaysia...kta msh bergolak dgn isu politik yg xkn pnh selesai smpai kiamat klau kta sndri x hntikn sgla spekulasi yg ntah pape...
"Allah tdk akan mengubah nasib sesuatu umat itu jka umat itu sndri tdk mahu berubah"
itu dunia pemimpin....itu dunia Malaysia......aku x nk pape mlainkn khdpn yg sdrhna yg menylmtkn aku drpd dunis kesstn...aku x ksah siapa pemmpin pn.....aslkn apa yg dbwanya itu adalah kebenaran dan ketulusan dan kesejahteraan....... apa yg aku fkirkn mgkin jga dfkirkn oleh org len......yg lbh memikirkan drpd aku...aku btl2 mahu kta smua sdar yg hidup ini tdk akn slamanya senag...
"sekeping hati dbwa berlari..jauh melalui jln yg sepi...JLN KEBENARAN..indah terbntang di dpn MATA PARA PEJUANG.....tp,jln kbnran TAK AKAN SELAMANYA SUNYI....ada UJIAN YG DTG MLNDA..ADA PERNGKAP MNUNGGU MNGSA....."
...aku ske nasyd ni...tp aku da lpa tjuk dia....dia ckp psal bnda yg baik tau...mmg bnda baik tu smua org nk...tp nk dptkn tu bknnya sng.....ingt senag mcm mancing ikan ke apa.....x smudah tu nya....aku ni kra ske jgk la mengarang bnda2 mcm ni....sbb bla aku ckp..aku cam bg pngajaran kt aku skali...bla aku x tulis ..aku lupa...mcm ayah aku ckp la...hahah....
"the truth of the matter is that u alwys know d rite thing to do but d had part is doing it"
btul x..kta tau apa yg ptt kta buat sbnrnya tp yg ssh, nk buat tu......(aku terpndg satu kertas kt board blik aku neyh....)..itulah sbnrnya..kta mg tau apa yg sbtulnya kta ptt buat...tp knp ssh sgt nk buat bnda tu....n then bla nk buat je msti ada hlngan...aku pn x phm...ada org ckp...ni mindset aku je...aku pk aku x bleh..so aku x bleh la....aku pk aku boleh..aku bleh ah...(cam malaysia boleh plak)....aahaa.....
"you are what you think"
btulke..cikgu aku ckp tak...sbb..dia ckp...."sya pk sy seorng raja....skrg ni awk tgk sy sbgai rja atau cikgu awak?."..aku gelak je ngn member aku...ye la..apalg aku mpu buat..hhah...gelak jela....
"kamu sbnrnya adalh diri kamu shj...bukn org lain...jd fikiran semata2 itu x smstinya mmbntu kamu...tp apabla fkiran dn hati kta berbcra sesma diorng....itulah dri kamu....."
bijak cikgu aku...mg aku syg gler kt dia...aku rndu dia....oklah aku nk brgnjak blik kpd kes israel dn palestin td......yg aku tgk byk korbannya.....org awam..esp budak2 kcl.....mngkin Allah trlalu sygkn mreka shinggakn Tuhan trik roh diorng....ataupn itu tlah tertulis dlm Qada dn Qadar....aku pn x pasti.....dn akan adakah tertulisnya...perang ke ats palestin akn berhnti?.....aku hnya bleh berdoa...spya akan tertulisnya..ctatan itu...
"Ya Allah,ta tuhan kami...selamatkanlah saudara kami yg sgt menderita di palestin....
Ya Allah..aku tdak sanggp utk mlihat kekejamn ke ats saudara ku lg.....
Ya Allah..kmi pinta..kami mohon petlongnmu....mohon perlindungn.....
mkbulknlah Ya Allah....
Monday, January 5, 2009
The Doomsday
Assalamualaikum…
huhuhuh…aku rindu siott blog ni..da lma arr jgk aku tak tulis kat blog ni….bknnnya saje aku x nk tulis…tapi x de bnda nk dtulis..hakhak…..tapi sebnrnya…mmg byk aku nk tulis..tapi……dah byk sgt sampai naik lenguh aku punya jari…so…..last2 aku pun rase cam baik jgk aku tulis bnda ni kat korang………sape2 yg mmbca aku punya blog….hrp2 korng dpt ah jgk mnfaatnya….ni….sbnrnya aku nk cite skit ni…psal……satu artikel ni…..aku br bca ari ni……tajuk dia "DAJAL BUKAN DONGENG" klau aku x silap tu la tajuk dia…klau silap…maaf byk2 la ye…..jadi….aku ni sbnrnya jnis yg berminat ah jgk psal bnda agama2 ni……lantk korng ah korang ckp apa sal aku…..aku ngaku yg aku ni jahil kan…jadi…dsbbkan aku jahil la aku nk bca bnda ni….okla, aku x nk merepek2 da….lpas aku baca semua kan….aku pun mula ah berpk………."klaulah bnda ni terjadi masa aku masih idup….apa agaknya nnti yg terjadi terhdp idup aku, keluarga aku, kwn2 semua……..pastu, camna nnti kitorng semua nk survive drpd kerosakan yg dilakukan oleh dajal tu…..pastu plak, x tmbh agi yg ya’juj ngn ma’juj………lagi dasyat………pastu , klaulah aku da lama mati masa tu , apa plak yg akan terjadi pd aku pnya keturunan……sapa nk selammtkan nnti, abis klau diorng jauh menyimpang, salah sape? adakah aku yg patt bertnggungjwb?…..apa yg ptt aku jwb klau nnti Allah tnya aku kat hari pengadilan nnti?!!!…arghh!!! tidak!!!…….. " pastu, aku tutp trus aku punya pemikran tu, aku aku still keep on going, bleh jd gle aku, tapi…btul ah…aku takut sgt….apa yg pling aku takut sgt2, aku still idup masa tu!!!…..tolong la aku x nk!!…aku x nk tergolong dalm kejahilan da kehancuran tu….aku respect sgt2 sape yg bleh survive zaman tu, iman kna kuat gler ah….(yg akunya, rase cam iman x sebesar zarah pun!!!)..aku takut weiii!!!……… pastu kan dlm artikel tu lagi dia ckp pasal tnda2 kiamat…….ble aku start pk agi..(lagi..)…hari kiamat ni cam…around da corner je….ye la kan…meh shini aku nk crita skit sal tanda2 kiamat ni……first skali…..Penaklukan Baitulmuqaddis…aku rase aku x yah cite ah sal ni sbb aku tau korng semua da tau kan……bnda ni mmg da lma da berlaku…..(sodihnya aku, dah la masjid Al-AQsa tu one of the most sacred Masjeed in Islam…kna jajah lak…adoiii…apa la nasib kita org islam….) pastu lak, yg 2nd ramai org soleh meniggal dunia, bak kata riwayat Ahmad - tidak akan dtg hari kiamat sehingga Allah mengambil org2 yg baik dan ahli agama di muka bumi, maka tiada yg tinggal padanya, kecuali org2 yg hina dan buruk yg tdk mengetahui yg makruf dan tdk mengingkari yg mungkar……(jadi, berdoalah spy kita semua tergolong dlm org2 yg baik tu, x pelah klau x jadi ahli agama pun, aslkan kita ni menjalankan tanggubgjwb amal ma’ruf, nahi mungkar, dan semoga juga kita smua terhindar drpd menjadi org2 yg hina itu, sama2lah berdoa….Ameen, sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Pengampun, Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Penyayang, Maha Mendengar dan Maha melihat……yg last skali..(actually bkn last tau, byk lagi….tapi aku rase ckup ah skadar aku bg tiga…..aku tau korang smua da pndai kan……korng kan lagi pndai drpd aku….so, wat?) yg last, Zina bermaharajalela….actually ni yg sggt2 ketara yg berlaku skrg kan?………ni aku nk cite skit ah, aku x berniat nk buruk2 kan sape2, nk malukan sape2 dan jauh lagi aku nk cemburu2 ni………tolong sket……aku sbnrnya ble tgk remaja skrg kan…(aku pun remaja jgk weii)…..berkepit ngn boyfrennya, ngn gilfrennya, adoiiii….kalah mak ngn ayah aku….(hak..hak..hak)..ok…ok….aku ok je ngn couple2 yg da metured tu kan…cam umr da sesuai la dikatakn mempunyai kekasih……..tapi…aku btul2 terkejut ah, bdk umur 9 tahun da pndai bercinta!!….adoiiii…mak ngkau!!!! aku btl2 "suspect" ah bdk ni……..bkn men awal lagi……aku ni br je masuk 15 thn….still x tau camna nk ada boyfren…hak…hak……tapi btul aku ckp…mmg aku x pnh ada bf……n aku btul2 x ingin nk ada bf selagi mak ngn ayah aku dan Tuhan x izinkan….kdg2 aku terpk tau, camna lah diorng ada msa nk berkapel2 ni……n then tukar2 lak, aku ngn homework nya yg bertimbun2…pastu commitment aku terhdp aku punya family..commitment ats diri aku jgk…tanggngjwb aku as a daughter, as a student…and tanggngjwb aku as a Muslim….(i dun even hav enough time look and love myself fully, how can i hav bf, aku sedih sgt, aku rase aku da kecewakan ramai org sbb aku x berperangai mcm bdk dewasa yg da berumr 15 thn….but i guess im still learning…..making mistakes is pasrt of learning, rite?…but, we can avoid from making mistakes, rite..?…**sigh***) ….tapi apapun itu bkn aku pnya hal…..aku cuma mengmbil lngkah yg berjaga2……x salah nk ada kekasih kan….tapi….bg aku….aku cam……….."haaaaaaaaaaaaaa………ada boyfre, aku ada boyfren?….adoiiiiii!!…….Lucunya!!!!!!!!!!!!!…hak..hak…..aku ngaku la, aku pun x pnh terlepas…having a crush on sumone, but hey, thats only temporary, it;s normal rite, kan Tuhan bg hati dan perasaan kat kita semua……so, sbb tu la kita ada ber"perasaan" tul tak?….tapi…..sedihnya, ramai org x pndai nk kawal kan…sbb tu la ada yg terlanjur…….Nauzubillahhimizzallik……mintak jauhlah….aku x nk..aku x nk……..!!!!!!……aku rase aku adalah org yg bertuah sbb x de boyfren buat masa ni…..aku bersyukur sgt2…..aku dah lalui bbrapa kejadian yg x terduga…dan aku btul2 x percaya bnda ni berlaku……..bnda ni semua x berlaku kat diri aku…tapi…..berlaku kat aku punya surrounding……Alhamdulillah, stakat ni x de bnda2 yg plik berlaku pada diri aku……jadi, aku pun amiklah pengajaran drpdnya……….mungkin Tuhan saja nk uji aku dan tunjuk kehidupan sbnr di dunia ini…….aku suka kta2 ni………"BIARLAH JODOH BUKAN DI DUNIA ASALKAN CINTA ILLAHI MENGIRINGI DAN TAK PERNAH PUDAR DARIPADA KEHIDUPAN KITA"…..bg aku, x de cinta sejati len atas dunia ni, kecuali cinta terhadap ALLAH YG SATU…….(pergi mmpus ah sape yg ckp akan bg cinta sejati kat aku, bleh blah……!!…aku btul2 ketawa t’bahak2 smpai nk terkncing m’dgrnya, mcmlah aku percaya, apa, ingt aku bodoh..?!!)
eh,eh,eh,eh……cik alia ni, dah melencong lak….biasa la………da syok sgt…hakhak…..tapi…apaun……aku harap korng phm la apa yg aku nk sampaikan ni…..jgn lak yg ada berprasngka bruk lak…..aku x berniat nk jeles ke apa ke…..yg pntg aku rase bnda ni btul dan baik…….huhuuh….okla…..au rase da pnjg berjela kau tulis bnda ni…almaklumla da lma x tulis….aiseyman, da kul 4 pagi ah…aku chow…..apapun, Assalamualaikum….
MAY ALLAH BLESS ALL OF US TILL THE END OF THE DAY WE LIVE…
MAY ALLAH GATHER US ALL IN THE SALLIHIN
MAY ALLAH PUT US AWAY FROM ALL COMPLICATIONS THAT HAPPENED TO BE IN THIS WORLD….
MAY ALLAH LOVE US ALL……..AND THE LOVE WUD NEVER FADE AWAY FROM OUR HEART…..
MAY ALLAH PROTECT US ALL, THE PROPHET MUHAMMAD SALLAH-HU-"ALAHI-WASSALAM’S LAST FOLLOWERS, BELIEVERS….
AMEEN….YA RABBAL-’ALA-MIN…..
huhuhuh…aku rindu siott blog ni..da lma arr jgk aku tak tulis kat blog ni….bknnnya saje aku x nk tulis…tapi x de bnda nk dtulis..hakhak…..tapi sebnrnya…mmg byk aku nk tulis..tapi……dah byk sgt sampai naik lenguh aku punya jari…so…..last2 aku pun rase cam baik jgk aku tulis bnda ni kat korang………sape2 yg mmbca aku punya blog….hrp2 korng dpt ah jgk mnfaatnya….ni….sbnrnya aku nk cite skit ni…psal……satu artikel ni…..aku br bca ari ni……tajuk dia "DAJAL BUKAN DONGENG" klau aku x silap tu la tajuk dia…klau silap…maaf byk2 la ye…..jadi….aku ni sbnrnya jnis yg berminat ah jgk psal bnda agama2 ni……lantk korng ah korang ckp apa sal aku…..aku ngaku yg aku ni jahil kan…jadi…dsbbkan aku jahil la aku nk bca bnda ni….okla, aku x nk merepek2 da….lpas aku baca semua kan….aku pun mula ah berpk………."klaulah bnda ni terjadi masa aku masih idup….apa agaknya nnti yg terjadi terhdp idup aku, keluarga aku, kwn2 semua……..pastu, camna nnti kitorng semua nk survive drpd kerosakan yg dilakukan oleh dajal tu…..pastu plak, x tmbh agi yg ya’juj ngn ma’juj………lagi dasyat………pastu , klaulah aku da lama mati masa tu , apa plak yg akan terjadi pd aku pnya keturunan……sapa nk selammtkan nnti, abis klau diorng jauh menyimpang, salah sape? adakah aku yg patt bertnggungjwb?…..apa yg ptt aku jwb klau nnti Allah tnya aku kat hari pengadilan nnti?!!!…arghh!!! tidak!!!…….. " pastu, aku tutp trus aku punya pemikran tu, aku aku still keep on going, bleh jd gle aku, tapi…btul ah…aku takut sgt….apa yg pling aku takut sgt2, aku still idup masa tu!!!…..tolong la aku x nk!!…aku x nk tergolong dalm kejahilan da kehancuran tu….aku respect sgt2 sape yg bleh survive zaman tu, iman kna kuat gler ah….(yg akunya, rase cam iman x sebesar zarah pun!!!)..aku takut weiii!!!……… pastu kan dlm artikel tu lagi dia ckp pasal tnda2 kiamat…….ble aku start pk agi..(lagi..)…hari kiamat ni cam…around da corner je….ye la kan…meh shini aku nk crita skit sal tanda2 kiamat ni……first skali…..Penaklukan Baitulmuqaddis…aku rase aku x yah cite ah sal ni sbb aku tau korng semua da tau kan……bnda ni mmg da lma da berlaku…..(sodihnya aku, dah la masjid Al-AQsa tu one of the most sacred Masjeed in Islam…kna jajah lak…adoiii…apa la nasib kita org islam….) pastu lak, yg 2nd ramai org soleh meniggal dunia, bak kata riwayat Ahmad - tidak akan dtg hari kiamat sehingga Allah mengambil org2 yg baik dan ahli agama di muka bumi, maka tiada yg tinggal padanya, kecuali org2 yg hina dan buruk yg tdk mengetahui yg makruf dan tdk mengingkari yg mungkar……(jadi, berdoalah spy kita semua tergolong dlm org2 yg baik tu, x pelah klau x jadi ahli agama pun, aslkan kita ni menjalankan tanggubgjwb amal ma’ruf, nahi mungkar, dan semoga juga kita smua terhindar drpd menjadi org2 yg hina itu, sama2lah berdoa….Ameen, sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Pengampun, Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Penyayang, Maha Mendengar dan Maha melihat……yg last skali..(actually bkn last tau, byk lagi….tapi aku rase ckup ah skadar aku bg tiga…..aku tau korang smua da pndai kan……korng kan lagi pndai drpd aku….so, wat?) yg last, Zina bermaharajalela….actually ni yg sggt2 ketara yg berlaku skrg kan?………ni aku nk cite skit ah, aku x berniat nk buruk2 kan sape2, nk malukan sape2 dan jauh lagi aku nk cemburu2 ni………tolong sket……aku sbnrnya ble tgk remaja skrg kan…(aku pun remaja jgk weii)…..berkepit ngn boyfrennya, ngn gilfrennya, adoiiii….kalah mak ngn ayah aku….(hak..hak..hak)..ok…ok….aku ok je ngn couple2 yg da metured tu kan…cam umr da sesuai la dikatakn mempunyai kekasih……..tapi…aku btul2 terkejut ah, bdk umur 9 tahun da pndai bercinta!!….adoiiii…mak ngkau!!!! aku btl2 "suspect" ah bdk ni……..bkn men awal lagi……aku ni br je masuk 15 thn….still x tau camna nk ada boyfren…hak…hak……tapi btul aku ckp…mmg aku x pnh ada bf……n aku btul2 x ingin nk ada bf selagi mak ngn ayah aku dan Tuhan x izinkan….kdg2 aku terpk tau, camna lah diorng ada msa nk berkapel2 ni……n then tukar2 lak, aku ngn homework nya yg bertimbun2…pastu commitment aku terhdp aku punya family..commitment ats diri aku jgk…tanggngjwb aku as a daughter, as a student…and tanggngjwb aku as a Muslim….(i dun even hav enough time look and love myself fully, how can i hav bf, aku sedih sgt, aku rase aku da kecewakan ramai org sbb aku x berperangai mcm bdk dewasa yg da berumr 15 thn….but i guess im still learning…..making mistakes is pasrt of learning, rite?…but, we can avoid from making mistakes, rite..?…**sigh***) ….tapi apapun itu bkn aku pnya hal…..aku cuma mengmbil lngkah yg berjaga2……x salah nk ada kekasih kan….tapi….bg aku….aku cam……….."haaaaaaaaaaaaaa………ada boyfre, aku ada boyfren?….adoiiiiii!!…….Lucunya!!!!!!!!!!!!!…hak..hak…..aku ngaku la, aku pun x pnh terlepas…having a crush on sumone, but hey, thats only temporary, it;s normal rite, kan Tuhan bg hati dan perasaan kat kita semua……so, sbb tu la kita ada ber"perasaan" tul tak?….tapi…..sedihnya, ramai org x pndai nk kawal kan…sbb tu la ada yg terlanjur…….Nauzubillahhimizzallik……mintak jauhlah….aku x nk..aku x nk……..!!!!!!……aku rase aku adalah org yg bertuah sbb x de boyfren buat masa ni…..aku bersyukur sgt2…..aku dah lalui bbrapa kejadian yg x terduga…dan aku btul2 x percaya bnda ni berlaku……..bnda ni semua x berlaku kat diri aku…tapi…..berlaku kat aku punya surrounding……Alhamdulillah, stakat ni x de bnda2 yg plik berlaku pada diri aku……jadi, aku pun amiklah pengajaran drpdnya……….mungkin Tuhan saja nk uji aku dan tunjuk kehidupan sbnr di dunia ini…….aku suka kta2 ni………"BIARLAH JODOH BUKAN DI DUNIA ASALKAN CINTA ILLAHI MENGIRINGI DAN TAK PERNAH PUDAR DARIPADA KEHIDUPAN KITA"…..bg aku, x de cinta sejati len atas dunia ni, kecuali cinta terhadap ALLAH YG SATU…….(pergi mmpus ah sape yg ckp akan bg cinta sejati kat aku, bleh blah……!!…aku btul2 ketawa t’bahak2 smpai nk terkncing m’dgrnya, mcmlah aku percaya, apa, ingt aku bodoh..?!!)
eh,eh,eh,eh……cik alia ni, dah melencong lak….biasa la………da syok sgt…hakhak…..tapi…apaun……aku harap korng phm la apa yg aku nk sampaikan ni…..jgn lak yg ada berprasngka bruk lak…..aku x berniat nk jeles ke apa ke…..yg pntg aku rase bnda ni btul dan baik…….huhuuh….okla…..au rase da pnjg berjela kau tulis bnda ni…almaklumla da lma x tulis….aiseyman, da kul 4 pagi ah…aku chow…..apapun, Assalamualaikum….
MAY ALLAH BLESS ALL OF US TILL THE END OF THE DAY WE LIVE…
MAY ALLAH GATHER US ALL IN THE SALLIHIN
MAY ALLAH PUT US AWAY FROM ALL COMPLICATIONS THAT HAPPENED TO BE IN THIS WORLD….
MAY ALLAH LOVE US ALL……..AND THE LOVE WUD NEVER FADE AWAY FROM OUR HEART…..
MAY ALLAH PROTECT US ALL, THE PROPHET MUHAMMAD SALLAH-HU-"ALAHI-WASSALAM’S LAST FOLLOWERS, BELIEVERS….
AMEEN….YA RABBAL-’ALA-MIN…..
FAMILY-noboby is left behind
Assalamualaikum…..and Bismillahirrahmanirrahimm…..
wuhooooo….we meet again, blogie….(im starting to call my blog "blogie"…..well,,,at least i think it’s a name-which’s-not-for-human)……korang msti plik kan…napa aku ni suke sgt skrg nulis blog ni…haaa, ni la aku nk ckp ni…aku sbnrnya boring gler…seminggu ni…mmg tak tau nk wat apa aku…..aku punya family da tingglkan aku…uhuhk..uhuk…..diorng skrg kat new zealnad..(everynite they call me and they are having a marvellous time there….how strange to hear all of these things which i shud hav xperience it.)……and here i am….alone…with this computer…in front of me……(thnk god i hav this compt beside me…..)…..u know …..i think i got sumthing quite intersting….huhuhuh,…today…im gonna write about….."family bond"…….
camnilah…aku pndekkan la critanya……..
last friday, i attended my kazen’s wedding ceremony…….and so it was…a wedding ceremony where we cud find a "pelamin" and "bunga telur" and when we’re about to to leave we are given this "telur" in a paper-container….(ohhhh, i used to love all of these things when i was little….but too bad, day by day, the tradition had started to change…..the telur thing had been replaced by sweets and candy….."potpourie" things..(sori if i mispelled that)…and many other stuffs…..im telling the truth, ok?…i watched as i remembered these things changed………how the world is changing now……huhuhh….well,,i guess that’s the way to live…..
back to my story……..
so..aku attend la wedding tu….alone without my family beside me..(they all went to new zealnd)..with my kinda-shy sister and a quite-closed relative…..we went there….and as soon as we reached there, im started to get lost.."ok..wat shud i do now…smile? just smile or shud i go and meet my other realtives?…….how am i supposed to do that………i never do that alone..this is my very first time..attending a relative-wedding-ceremony without my family..im totally lost…how to face them…..its not that i dun know them…it’s just that, i forget their names, i know them…and some of them were starting to smile at me…so i just smiled back…like a totally-psycho….."..see, this is wat hapened when u dun really know
ur own relatives while ur relatives do realy know you!!!!!…..ahhh, god..this is such a humuliatng situation…im lost and i dun know who im meeting…i dun know wat to do…..arghh!!!…need help here……so im starting to think again….shud i just go inside the house or shud i just stay outside and looking like a lost person?…NO…..that’s a big humiliate….thnk god…..when i just went inside the house……there was it, my aunty…(my father’s sister)….smiling at me and inviting me inside…so, i started to chill down a bit…(thnk u god!!)……i just "salam2" ngn diorng semua…..Alhamdulillah, the ceremony went good…….lpas slm2 tu, kitorng borak2 jap…and sum of them didnt noticed me…..bucz…i was wearing like a 20 years-old matured lady…huhu…im proud……yes, i wore a dark-red..(like a fish-blood) long-blouse…a white boot-cut pants….and a pink "tudung".(with a "wrdina-style.ahahah)..and a white handbag……is this sounds like im wearing a matured lady outfit……….well, it doesnt sound but it does look….huhuhu……so, they keep saying, "gosh, i almost dont recognize u……are u 15 or wat?…hahahah…funny……lpas borak2 tu, kitorng turun bwh..mkan kjp…n then, naik atas blik….salam2 again, sbb da nk blik……pg kejap giler…sbb malu weii………..ramai sgt relative yg aku knl tapi tak ingt nama…and then aku pun x knal sgt diorng….diorng tgk aku pun cam.."mcm aku pnh tgk budak ni…tapi kat mana ye…."…ahahah….aku x thn da ngn pndngn diorng yg mcm tu………….
sooo…itulah pengalaman aku…bdk umr 15 thn pegi wedding ceremony…ALONE……(x de la alone….tapi pg 3 org pun rase cam alone…..sebbaik kakak aku ada….tapi..diatu jadi mak turut aku…aku jln sini…dia jaln sini..patut aku la yg ikut dia…….ni aku pulak yg acting like kakak…….sbb tu la rmai org ckp aku ni kakak dia ke…pdahal dia la kakak aku..apapun, bukan salah dia….haha) jadinya…ngkorang semua, inilah padahnya ble kita x knl sgt kita punya saudara mara kita…..ramai org ckp…family ni itula..inila….tapi korang kna ingt…masa time nk buat kenduri, kenduri arwah, majlis kesyukuran…sapa yg tolong kita buat bnda ni nnti?….family jgk kan…..korng maybe tak rase lagi btapa pntgnya family ni……..nnti korng tua nnti taula……..nasib aku dilahirkan dlm family bond yg kuat dan rapat la jgk…..walaupun kkitorng cam jarang jumpa n kdg2 ada mslh tu….msalah ni…tapi biasala bnda tu terjadi………..korng jgnlah percaya yg dunia, kwn2, gilfen or boyfren korng yg akan tolong korng masa sush nnti……..tuhan sndri akan tunjuk btapa pntgnya family bond……….walaupun ada di antra famliy member kita yg x brape nk menjadi…..tapi…..ingtlh, biarlah diorng tu, kita ni yg da tau pntgnya bersaudara rapat……cuba jgn jadikan itu sbg pnghalang………kita ada otak untk berfikir……….jadi fikirlah……Tuhan pun da ckp kan……."berbaik2lah kamu di antra saudara kamu dan jgn lah berburuk2 sangka" (sori, aku ada edit skit perkataan nya..tapi mksud dia samanya)….aku pun mengaku yg kdg2 family aku pun ada mslh….tapi….itu bukan satu penghalang untk aku terus bermsam muka….mama n papa aku ckp…biarlah dgn diorng…….asalkan kita berbuat baik dan lakukan bnda yg btul……..itu da memadai…..kita hanya mmpu berserah dan berdoa…….harp2 diorng sedar yg kita tlah berbuat baik untk mereka(saudara-mara aku)……………tapi…..apa2 saja masalah yg timbul…bnda tu akan hilang sendri……mmg hilng sendri…..sengketa2 dlu da dlupakan…………dimakan masa……..
itu la pntgnya bersabar dan keep hoping for the best to our family…………ingatlah korang……..bnda ni akan bg kesan kpd korng…………….ingt…Family is one of the best thing God ever given to us………..cuba la berusaha rapatkan bond tu……korng ni blum pape…da ckp fam korng ni..itula..inila….pdhal korng x knl langsung fam korng………….hipocrit!!…..aku sbnrnya x ske org yg x ske sgt ngn family dia…..pttnya bersyukur…dia ada family……….
wuhooooo….we meet again, blogie….(im starting to call my blog "blogie"…..well,,,at least i think it’s a name-which’s-not-for-human)……korang msti plik kan…napa aku ni suke sgt skrg nulis blog ni…haaa, ni la aku nk ckp ni…aku sbnrnya boring gler…seminggu ni…mmg tak tau nk wat apa aku…..aku punya family da tingglkan aku…uhuhk..uhuk…..diorng skrg kat new zealnad..(everynite they call me and they are having a marvellous time there….how strange to hear all of these things which i shud hav xperience it.)……and here i am….alone…with this computer…in front of me……(thnk god i hav this compt beside me…..)…..u know …..i think i got sumthing quite intersting….huhuhuh,…today…im gonna write about….."family bond"…….
camnilah…aku pndekkan la critanya……..
last friday, i attended my kazen’s wedding ceremony…….and so it was…a wedding ceremony where we cud find a "pelamin" and "bunga telur" and when we’re about to to leave we are given this "telur" in a paper-container….(ohhhh, i used to love all of these things when i was little….but too bad, day by day, the tradition had started to change…..the telur thing had been replaced by sweets and candy….."potpourie" things..(sori if i mispelled that)…and many other stuffs…..im telling the truth, ok?…i watched as i remembered these things changed………how the world is changing now……huhuhh….well,,i guess that’s the way to live…..
back to my story……..
so..aku attend la wedding tu….alone without my family beside me..(they all went to new zealnd)..with my kinda-shy sister and a quite-closed relative…..we went there….and as soon as we reached there, im started to get lost.."ok..wat shud i do now…smile? just smile or shud i go and meet my other realtives?…….how am i supposed to do that………i never do that alone..this is my very first time..attending a relative-wedding-ceremony without my family..im totally lost…how to face them…..its not that i dun know them…it’s just that, i forget their names, i know them…and some of them were starting to smile at me…so i just smiled back…like a totally-psycho….."..see, this is wat hapened when u dun really know
ur own relatives while ur relatives do realy know you!!!!!…..ahhh, god..this is such a humuliatng situation…im lost and i dun know who im meeting…i dun know wat to do…..arghh!!!…need help here……so im starting to think again….shud i just go inside the house or shud i just stay outside and looking like a lost person?…NO…..that’s a big humiliate….thnk god…..when i just went inside the house……there was it, my aunty…(my father’s sister)….smiling at me and inviting me inside…so, i started to chill down a bit…(thnk u god!!)……i just "salam2" ngn diorng semua…..Alhamdulillah, the ceremony went good…….lpas slm2 tu, kitorng borak2 jap…and sum of them didnt noticed me…..bucz…i was wearing like a 20 years-old matured lady…huhu…im proud……yes, i wore a dark-red..(like a fish-blood) long-blouse…a white boot-cut pants….and a pink "tudung".(with a "wrdina-style.ahahah)..and a white handbag……is this sounds like im wearing a matured lady outfit……….well, it doesnt sound but it does look….huhuhu……so, they keep saying, "gosh, i almost dont recognize u……are u 15 or wat?…hahahah…funny……lpas borak2 tu, kitorng turun bwh..mkan kjp…n then, naik atas blik….salam2 again, sbb da nk blik……pg kejap giler…sbb malu weii………..ramai sgt relative yg aku knl tapi tak ingt nama…and then aku pun x knal sgt diorng….diorng tgk aku pun cam.."mcm aku pnh tgk budak ni…tapi kat mana ye…."…ahahah….aku x thn da ngn pndngn diorng yg mcm tu………….
sooo…itulah pengalaman aku…bdk umr 15 thn pegi wedding ceremony…ALONE……(x de la alone….tapi pg 3 org pun rase cam alone…..sebbaik kakak aku ada….tapi..diatu jadi mak turut aku…aku jln sini…dia jaln sini..patut aku la yg ikut dia…….ni aku pulak yg acting like kakak…….sbb tu la rmai org ckp aku ni kakak dia ke…pdahal dia la kakak aku..apapun, bukan salah dia….haha) jadinya…ngkorang semua, inilah padahnya ble kita x knl sgt kita punya saudara mara kita…..ramai org ckp…family ni itula..inila….tapi korang kna ingt…masa time nk buat kenduri, kenduri arwah, majlis kesyukuran…sapa yg tolong kita buat bnda ni nnti?….family jgk kan…..korng maybe tak rase lagi btapa pntgnya family ni……..nnti korng tua nnti taula……..nasib aku dilahirkan dlm family bond yg kuat dan rapat la jgk…..walaupun kkitorng cam jarang jumpa n kdg2 ada mslh tu….msalah ni…tapi biasala bnda tu terjadi………..korng jgnlah percaya yg dunia, kwn2, gilfen or boyfren korng yg akan tolong korng masa sush nnti……..tuhan sndri akan tunjuk btapa pntgnya family bond……….walaupun ada di antra famliy member kita yg x brape nk menjadi…..tapi…..ingtlh, biarlah diorng tu, kita ni yg da tau pntgnya bersaudara rapat……cuba jgn jadikan itu sbg pnghalang………kita ada otak untk berfikir……….jadi fikirlah……Tuhan pun da ckp kan……."berbaik2lah kamu di antra saudara kamu dan jgn lah berburuk2 sangka" (sori, aku ada edit skit perkataan nya..tapi mksud dia samanya)….aku pun mengaku yg kdg2 family aku pun ada mslh….tapi….itu bukan satu penghalang untk aku terus bermsam muka….mama n papa aku ckp…biarlah dgn diorng…….asalkan kita berbuat baik dan lakukan bnda yg btul……..itu da memadai…..kita hanya mmpu berserah dan berdoa…….harp2 diorng sedar yg kita tlah berbuat baik untk mereka(saudara-mara aku)……………tapi…..apa2 saja masalah yg timbul…bnda tu akan hilang sendri……mmg hilng sendri…..sengketa2 dlu da dlupakan…………dimakan masa……..
itu la pntgnya bersabar dan keep hoping for the best to our family…………ingatlah korang……..bnda ni akan bg kesan kpd korng…………….ingt…Family is one of the best thing God ever given to us………..cuba la berusaha rapatkan bond tu……korng ni blum pape…da ckp fam korng ni..itula..inila….pdhal korng x knl langsung fam korng………….hipocrit!!…..aku sbnrnya x ske org yg x ske sgt ngn family dia…..pttnya bersyukur…dia ada family……….
New Year is Just Another Year
Assalamualaikum…
Hey everyone…huhuh…it’s been a while, eh??…hakhak…kinda miss this blog…..now it’d been 5 days in the year of 2009…..feels like time’s slipping so fast and we never realize that……..with a wink of an eye…everything’s changed….and we’re just hoping that we cud have that moment back………****sigh***…time is precious and it’s slipping away….and it waits for no man……..
As I looked back at those yesterdays……how things changed……..I saw my frens are starting to have their own bf, sum of them are leaving the school…..and sum of them are pursuing their own career at a better place…….my sisters are getting busier…….and look at me now………………I started to wear make-ups….(eyeliner is my fav!!)…..and I m a bit self-conscious about my appearance…….and im starting to think way ahead of time……..
i guess this is what they called……natural-changes-phenomenon……and I dun even know what it is…. But there’s only one thing I know about this……….we change because we want to change….doesn’t matter for worse or better…it is we who make the changes itself…..
New year…people talk about new determination, obligation, commitment, responsibility……………..and changing attitude, habits, lifestyle…and so on……..but they just dun realize that how the “real changing” has been………. Because they are so get glued with the statement…..”new year, new me!”……..if it is the way, then we are the different persons every year…….
The point here is….we dun hav to wait for a new year to change ourselves for better…..(or vice versa)……to do it is to do it NOW………. Why we hav to wait until the new year then we’ll hav to change everything???…….and sumtimes…..by new year ….everything is worthless for us to make the change…..so, it is btter for us to act now……
Sumtimes…im just tired of hearing making changes every year…….but im not tired of hearing making mistakes every moment………bcuz…by making mistakes…we are aware of what we lack…..and that’s when we know that we hav to make it better……and that’s called improvement….when we improve and that is called…….”the changes”………..
So, changes are linked to many things…….improvement, commitments, obligation, responsibility…and so on…………
REMEMBER ONE THING………..CHANGES HAPPEN EVERY MOMENT………..AND SUM OF US ARE WELL-AWARE OF THEM……BUT MANY DUN……………….BRILLIANT PEOPLE IS WHO DO THE RIGHT THING IN THE RIGHT TIME AT THE RIGHT PLACE……
Hey everyone…huhuh…it’s been a while, eh??…hakhak…kinda miss this blog…..now it’d been 5 days in the year of 2009…..feels like time’s slipping so fast and we never realize that……..with a wink of an eye…everything’s changed….and we’re just hoping that we cud have that moment back………****sigh***…time is precious and it’s slipping away….and it waits for no man……..
As I looked back at those yesterdays……how things changed……..I saw my frens are starting to have their own bf, sum of them are leaving the school…..and sum of them are pursuing their own career at a better place…….my sisters are getting busier…….and look at me now………………I started to wear make-ups….(eyeliner is my fav!!)…..and I m a bit self-conscious about my appearance…….and im starting to think way ahead of time……..
i guess this is what they called……natural-changes-phenomenon……and I dun even know what it is…. But there’s only one thing I know about this……….we change because we want to change….doesn’t matter for worse or better…it is we who make the changes itself…..
New year…people talk about new determination, obligation, commitment, responsibility……………..and changing attitude, habits, lifestyle…and so on……..but they just dun realize that how the “real changing” has been………. Because they are so get glued with the statement…..”new year, new me!”……..if it is the way, then we are the different persons every year…….
The point here is….we dun hav to wait for a new year to change ourselves for better…..(or vice versa)……to do it is to do it NOW………. Why we hav to wait until the new year then we’ll hav to change everything???…….and sumtimes…..by new year ….everything is worthless for us to make the change…..so, it is btter for us to act now……
Sumtimes…im just tired of hearing making changes every year…….but im not tired of hearing making mistakes every moment………bcuz…by making mistakes…we are aware of what we lack…..and that’s when we know that we hav to make it better……and that’s called improvement….when we improve and that is called…….”the changes”………..
So, changes are linked to many things…….improvement, commitments, obligation, responsibility…and so on…………
REMEMBER ONE THING………..CHANGES HAPPEN EVERY MOMENT………..AND SUM OF US ARE WELL-AWARE OF THEM……BUT MANY DUN……………….BRILLIANT PEOPLE IS WHO DO THE RIGHT THING IN THE RIGHT TIME AT THE RIGHT PLACE……
P.A.R.A.N.O.I.D
assalamualaikum…
dah lma seyh…aku x tulis blog…..ada la lam 2-3 blan….btul ak…heheh……hmmm..aku rase cam byk bnda aku nk tulis…tapi….ntah la….rase mcm terlalu byk sampaikan tak tertulis…..hak3……..camni jelah..apa kta aku pndekkan je………cite nya………
WHEN
SOMETHING UNPLEASANT HAPPENS, THINGS ARE VERY VULNERABLE AND CONDITIONS GET SO FRAGILE, WE TEND TO LOSE A HOLD OF OURSELVES AND THE HOPES AND CHANCES THAT WE OWN FOR ALL OF THIS TIME, SEEM TO BE SCATTERED TO PIECES…. NOTHING SEEMS TO BE ALRIGHT NOW…THE LIFE WE LIVE IN IS NOT THE PLACE WHERE WE THOUGHT WE COULD HAVE A NOEMAL LIFE ANYMORE… IT SEEMS DARK AND FULL OF SORROW… THEN, IT’S THE TIME WHEN ALL OF THE WHISPERS OF GUILT AND THE UNREVEALING TRUTH COME AND KNOCK ON YOUR BROKEN DOOR… AND YOU DONT REALLY HAVE THE FIRM DEFENSE OF YOURSELVES…WHAT ARE YOU TO DO….WHEN ALL OF THE PAIN-STRAINING EYES STARE AT YOU….WHEN ALL OF THE SILENCES ARE BROKEN DUE TO WHAT’VE YOU DONE….. BUT, THE TRUTH IS, YOU DO NOTHING… THEY SEE YOU WITH THE GUILTY SIGHT THAT YOU DONT HAVE THE EFFORT TO STOP IT…. YOU DONT SEE IT COMING….HOW COULD YOU ACTUALLY STOP IT IF YOU JUST DONT SEE IT COMING…. BY THEN, YOU HAD BROKEN MANY OF PEOPLE’S HEART…. PEOLPE SAY, IF EVERYONE ELSE CAN DO IT, THEN WHY CANT YOU? YES, YOU KNOW PRECISELY YOU CAN DO IT BUT IT TAKES TIME. IT SEEMS LIKE EVERY SINGLE STEP THAT YOU TAKES IS ANOTHER MISTAKES TO EVERYONE. IT SEEMS TO BE THAT WAY. AND WHO ON EARTH CAN ACTUALLY STAND THAT? YOU TRY SO HARD BUT THE CHANCES NOW ARE ALREADY GONE, IT DOESN’T WORTH IT ANYMORE. YOU JUST GIVE IT UP. THAT’S ALL YOU CAN DO. YOU’RE A FAILURE. YOU FAIL TO LET YOUR LIFE TO HAVE A NORMAL LIFE. YOU ARE A FAILURE TO THI SO WHY SHOULD YOU CONTINUE ON DOING IT. TO KEEP ON FAILINF SO THAT YOU WONT SUCCEED? NO..!!! YOU’RE NOT A FAILURE. YOU NEED TIME…YOU NEED SPACES FOR YOURSELVES…..TO THINK WHY IT HAS TO BE LIKE THIS…WHY IT ALWAYS HAS TO BE LIKE THIS. IT SEEMS THAT YOU ARE DESTINIED, YOU’RE CHOSEN TO LIVE A LIFE LIKE THIS. THINGS GET SO WORSE DAY BY DAY. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE…?…WHAT HAVE YOU DONE…? THE QUESTION KEEP ON SPINNING IN YOUR MIND,RUNNING THROUGH YOUR VEIN. YOU COULD NOT HELP IT. YOU BELIEVE THAT IN A SECOND, ALL THE WORLD CAN WAIT, YOU JUST NEED TO LET GO OF YOUR YESTERDAY. YOU NEED TO FIND NEW HOPES AND DREAMS.YOU KNOW IT SEEMS HARD, BUT IT’S THE LEAST YOU CAN DO….
wow…the story seems to be great huh?….for ur infrmation…this story is about a girl…..who continuosly paranoid of her life…sumtimes she wish she is takn away from what she had known…… she just keep on thinking…..why all of the bad things always lingers around her…she foresee the brite sight..but it cant be seen….. she is paranoid of her own life…………………..she thinks everyone she knew had hated her……she is a threat to everyone……she’s paranoid……
dah lma seyh…aku x tulis blog…..ada la lam 2-3 blan….btul ak…heheh……hmmm..aku rase cam byk bnda aku nk tulis…tapi….ntah la….rase mcm terlalu byk sampaikan tak tertulis…..hak3……..camni jelah..apa kta aku pndekkan je………cite nya………
WHEN
SOMETHING UNPLEASANT HAPPENS, THINGS ARE VERY VULNERABLE AND CONDITIONS GET SO FRAGILE, WE TEND TO LOSE A HOLD OF OURSELVES AND THE HOPES AND CHANCES THAT WE OWN FOR ALL OF THIS TIME, SEEM TO BE SCATTERED TO PIECES…. NOTHING SEEMS TO BE ALRIGHT NOW…THE LIFE WE LIVE IN IS NOT THE PLACE WHERE WE THOUGHT WE COULD HAVE A NOEMAL LIFE ANYMORE… IT SEEMS DARK AND FULL OF SORROW… THEN, IT’S THE TIME WHEN ALL OF THE WHISPERS OF GUILT AND THE UNREVEALING TRUTH COME AND KNOCK ON YOUR BROKEN DOOR… AND YOU DONT REALLY HAVE THE FIRM DEFENSE OF YOURSELVES…WHAT ARE YOU TO DO….WHEN ALL OF THE PAIN-STRAINING EYES STARE AT YOU….WHEN ALL OF THE SILENCES ARE BROKEN DUE TO WHAT’VE YOU DONE….. BUT, THE TRUTH IS, YOU DO NOTHING… THEY SEE YOU WITH THE GUILTY SIGHT THAT YOU DONT HAVE THE EFFORT TO STOP IT…. YOU DONT SEE IT COMING….HOW COULD YOU ACTUALLY STOP IT IF YOU JUST DONT SEE IT COMING…. BY THEN, YOU HAD BROKEN MANY OF PEOPLE’S HEART…. PEOLPE SAY, IF EVERYONE ELSE CAN DO IT, THEN WHY CANT YOU? YES, YOU KNOW PRECISELY YOU CAN DO IT BUT IT TAKES TIME. IT SEEMS LIKE EVERY SINGLE STEP THAT YOU TAKES IS ANOTHER MISTAKES TO EVERYONE. IT SEEMS TO BE THAT WAY. AND WHO ON EARTH CAN ACTUALLY STAND THAT? YOU TRY SO HARD BUT THE CHANCES NOW ARE ALREADY GONE, IT DOESN’T WORTH IT ANYMORE. YOU JUST GIVE IT UP. THAT’S ALL YOU CAN DO. YOU’RE A FAILURE. YOU FAIL TO LET YOUR LIFE TO HAVE A NORMAL LIFE. YOU ARE A FAILURE TO THI SO WHY SHOULD YOU CONTINUE ON DOING IT. TO KEEP ON FAILINF SO THAT YOU WONT SUCCEED? NO..!!! YOU’RE NOT A FAILURE. YOU NEED TIME…YOU NEED SPACES FOR YOURSELVES…..TO THINK WHY IT HAS TO BE LIKE THIS…WHY IT ALWAYS HAS TO BE LIKE THIS. IT SEEMS THAT YOU ARE DESTINIED, YOU’RE CHOSEN TO LIVE A LIFE LIKE THIS. THINGS GET SO WORSE DAY BY DAY. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE…?…WHAT HAVE YOU DONE…? THE QUESTION KEEP ON SPINNING IN YOUR MIND,RUNNING THROUGH YOUR VEIN. YOU COULD NOT HELP IT. YOU BELIEVE THAT IN A SECOND, ALL THE WORLD CAN WAIT, YOU JUST NEED TO LET GO OF YOUR YESTERDAY. YOU NEED TO FIND NEW HOPES AND DREAMS.YOU KNOW IT SEEMS HARD, BUT IT’S THE LEAST YOU CAN DO….
wow…the story seems to be great huh?….for ur infrmation…this story is about a girl…..who continuosly paranoid of her life…sumtimes she wish she is takn away from what she had known…… she just keep on thinking…..why all of the bad things always lingers around her…she foresee the brite sight..but it cant be seen….. she is paranoid of her own life…………………..she thinks everyone she knew had hated her……she is a threat to everyone……she’s paranoid……
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